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Goodbye, [public] Xanga

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 03:02:28 GMT

Okay, this is it. I don't feel like I can write about my life in here, my thoughts, anything, because people are reading this. Well, obviously people are reading this; it is an online journal, after all. But what is a journal that you cannot even put your most valuable memories in, without people you don't want reading them...reading them? It's like the other day, when I said I was so pissed off I was going to kill someone, and then the next day at school the principal is telling me that "concerned parents" called in, taking what I said seriously. Lately I feel like everyone is watching me, people are listening to everything I'm saying and of course I'm making it easier to let them know my thoughts, because they are reading everything I write in here. I don't like that; I don't want that. I just want to be able to write what I want without anyone reading it but me, and if that means my closest friends can't read it then fine, they can't. I'm going to get a new xanga with a fake name and make it completely private, tell nobody about it. I will still keep my myspace because I don't really put anything personal on there anyway. Now don't get all dramatic. If anybody here on xanga wants to talk to me anymore, here's my myspace url:

http://www.myspace.com/imissthebrightside

I hope you all enjoyed this wonderful little window into my life, but somebody has forced me to close the drapes.

Love,
Zoe

Ps. Saw V For Vendetta tonight, it was hot.

"A revolution without dancing is just not worth it."

Friday, March 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 20:01:47 GMT

Brooke & Micah,
Everything is going to be okay.
I love you both.

Anyway, Josh asked if I still hate him and I said no. It's not as if he did what he did with bad intent. So, I'm kind of blah, whatever about that right now, I guess.
I need to buy Curve For Men. Who cares if it's "For Men", it smells like sex.

Happy Green Day!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 03:36:49 GMT

So, you guys have seen the new Fall Out Boy video for "A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More 'Touch Me'", right? Oh Em Fucking Gee, Petah-bear Wentz as a vampire was just about the hottest thing I had ever seen...

So Pete what are you waiting for? Bite me, bite me!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 02:32:11 GMT

Him-Not talking to me?

Me-Sure I am........Hi. See? I talked.

Him-Yeah but I had to ask you to. You hate me. [Good, you fucking get it.]

Me-[True, true. Can't deny that...]

Thomas-Oh, she doesn't hate you, she's just a bitch. [Haha, Thomas. Ha, ha.]

Him-No, she's not a bitch, she hates me. [sounds like he knows he deserves to be hated and, well, I hope he does know]

Me-...Bye.

Ugh, freaking idiot.

Different subject; I want my new uber sexified friend, Krantz, in bed. Yeah, I said it.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:55:03 GMT

Hey, you. Yes, you. The one who called North Henderson and told them that I wrote "Whoever pisses me off the most, prepare to die." on my xanga, and thought it was some kind of death threat. Let's make a deal. You'll stop taking things so literally, and I will choose my words more carefully.

Now, it is my choice to make my thoughts public, but I honestly didn't think that I was so interesting as to have people spy on me and take my stupid, careless remarks so seriously. Let's get this straight...in the past, whenever I said I wanted to kill somebody, I never ever meant that. Come on, I've been a vegetarian for almost a year now, don't you know? Peaceful vegetarians like myself don't kill people.

I mean it. I know I can make myself sound very unintelligent and ignorant sometimes, but I am not. I apologize for all the stupid things I've said and done.

Today Mr. Tanner and Ms. Friend both talked to me about this. Ms. Friend seems nice, whatever. Mr. Tanner said he wants to see me again. I don't know why this is. Maybe he wants to keep watch on me and make sure I'm really not Zoe the Homicidal Maniac. He does seem pretty cool though. He said he can identify with me and that he was the same way in High School, but he said the same thing to Brooke and Micah. How do I know I can trust that this guy isn't totally bullshitting me? But I like him anyway, so I hope he's not.

I stayed after school for math today. I have like, 30 zeros. Eeeek. I'm going to stay after for weeks if I have to.
Hey, update on him. I didn't talk to him today. He came up to me to say "If you keep dying your hair, it's going to fall out." Yeah, okay thanks.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	High
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 02:20:07 GMT

I'm actually excited about school tomorrow. Why? Because I have Sexual Education first thing in the morning and that is one of my favorite subjects of all time. Sex. Woohoo!

Hey, hey. I'm going to kill somebody tomorrow. Whoever pisses me off the most, prepare to die.

I'm staying after school all week this week to make up for my absenses and stuff. Good, I don't have to talk to him in car riders. Should be a nice break.

Ciao.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 22:04:12 GMT

I hated loving you.

But how I love hating you...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:07:33 GMT

Happy birthday, Joshua.

My mommy dyed my hair blonde with...pink streaks! It's hot!

Tonight is the premiere of the new season of America's Next Top Model...& right after it is the premiere of the new show, Black.White., where they switch the races of a white family & a black family. It's going to be the sweetest 3 hours of television EVER!

Zoe!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 02:09:37 GMT

I'm in love with a stripper
She ridin
She rollin
She climbin that pole &
I'm in love with a stripper

You can't steal our dreams cuz we're like, asleep when we have them!

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 22:59:53 GMT

Damnit. He called me & I can't call him back.

Um...Bille Joe Armstrong, you're fucking crazy. What the hell do you think you're doing, dying your hair blonde & masturbating in a park? All in the same week? I remember the first time I became obsessed with you, they all said you were crazy. I was like, sure he is. Well, yeah you are. Whatever, I still love you. Oh...if I see you doing naughty things to yourself in my local park I will jump on you and do worse things...Yeah, just so you know.

The Olympics are over! Do you know what that means? Conan! I can watch Conan again!

Omfg, french vanilla cappuccino, we're not working out. I'm so sorry, I used to love you but you made me sick today and no, no, I'm breaking up with you.
Hey, you know what would cheer me up? ORANGE MOCAH FRAPPUCCiNO!!! Woooooo!

'Tis Josh's 17th birthday on Wednesday, March 8, 2006.

What a wonderful caricature of intimacy <3